Different way.

I can't stand my feeling anymore. No one can talk with me and no one understand. I really can't stand it the only way is to talk all my feeling here. No even him know my feeling. OKAY ! we choose different way, we have different opinion then now I don't know we should continue our relationship or just break up. He choose to stay on this work I choose to leave on this work because my opinion was I can't accept I come out work then I need to paid for the lost of stock. I repeat again "NO" no matter how many times I say and repeat I straightly will say NO ! You can say I am gnarly but I still say NO. That what I wan to say.

Since we both choose in a different way then I think we should end our relationship just like that. If you ask me am I willing to let go just like that and my answer is NO. But I don't think we still can manage our relationship both of us live in a different way having different lifestyle compare to now. Do you still remember what day is today ? Is our 1 year and 8 month anniversary so we just end it because of work ? Is that easy to tear us apart ? I don't know wtf have YW tell you this afternoon but I am sure you will stand for them because you think what they say was right compare to what I say. Do you think I will spoil you future ? DO you think I don't wan you to work in a better company?DO you think I don't want you to have a lot a lot money ? Outside have more and more chances waiting for us maybe you don't think so. I know what you think is you will say if I don't work here where should I go ? We work here more than a years then how much money do you gain to save in your account ? This you should be more know more than me. Why would you hear what other people say rather than your own gf ?Am I that wan you bad? I just wan you but you couldn't know it. Nvm is okay. I have nothing to say anymore.

Is all depend on you. Bye.

3 days holiday

Hey, start from today I have 3 days holidays. Happy cause long time didn't a break I still remember when was the last time I have holiday it was on May. Ohhhhh such a long time. Work as this job really tiring but what should I work at after I resign here. Problem begin but I don't think it is a problem cause if I resign now I still have 6 months time for me to find another job. Huuuuu :(

Do you guys still remember my last post? I did! I remember when I was writing my last post that second my tears keep dropping non stop I don't give a shit on that second who was around me and staring at me cause on that second I really want to write all my emotion down. I don't know who to talk with on that time but after I wrote what I feel what did really release my feeling was I receive his massage on that time. He said he will never leave me alone he gonna stay away from there with me cause he know I'm not like a kid anymore I will think of our future. Thanks for him staying by my side all the time I really thanks him from my bottom of my heart.

Todayyyyy I went to shopping and movie with my friends sigh I have used more than 100 bucks for a day. Running of money nowadays. Help me ! Bought a lot things from THE BODY SHOP hope it really cure all my body and face problem. Nowadays my face skin was super duper dry OMGGG ! I should do something on that so I bought a lot. Sorry shopaholic is back. =]

I wanna go holiday with my baby boy. Sad he gonna work on this 2 days so I only have to be with him for a day. End of this month he will be going to Malaysia Fair again. He sure will be tired like hell. I hate this job making us so tired. =[

Alright before I stop here would like to post a picture of me. Haha camwhore freak.

WORST

WORST , WORST AND WORST !

Only one word can describe my feeling now. How I should I say? Erm... My fault? I made a wrong decision at first? Should I say it that way? Hooooo... Super down right now. Not The first time I have this feeling. Okay I feel sucks of my job I feel worst at my relationship. I could not accept both in the same time. My job I wanted to quit long time ago why why and why? Because I don't feel it is really suitable for me even now or after. Yeah they did nothing on me but why I feel it sucks on my job? IT always is not right for me I DON"T LIKE IT AT ALL. Moreover, every month gonna deduct my salary for adjustment? No cctv, no guard so who gonna take care of it ? They say we gonna take care of it. But my job was a sales person so I should do both job but you just paid me a single job salary. GOOD JOB ! I should stop on that.

Okay my relationship? One word I work hard on it but I don't get what I wan. WHY, WHY AND WHY ? Why do I have to work same job as him? because I want to have a good communication with him and more time on us. Why do I have to do that? Simply because I love him but why can't I simply get back a little love from him? When I'm in the worst of my job he told me he not gonna follow me he want to stay at this job. What's on his mind now ? Anyone can tell me. More and more I just can't understand him. Did he ever think about our future before? Me? Yes I did ! I wan to marry him and have our own house but what about him? If I leave on my job and he stay we probably could not meet each other anymore. Why? he off on weekdays and I off on weekend. DO u still think we still can manage our relationship compare to now we meet each other everyday? I don't think so. Why when I need you the most you leave me away? I failed on my job I have no one to talk about my feeling not even you. I just need you to support me but why it turns out lik dat?

Sign off.