I can't stand my feeling anymore. No one can talk with me and no one understand. I really can't stand it the only way is to talk all my feeling here. No even him know my feeling. OKAY ! we choose different way, we have different opinion then now I don't know we should continue our relationship or just break up. He choose to stay on this work I choose to leave on this work because my opinion was I can't accept I come out work then I need to paid for the lost of stock. I repeat again "NO" no matter how many times I say and repeat I straightly will say NO ! You can say I am gnarly but I still say NO. That what I wan to say.
Since we both choose in a different way then I think we should end our relationship just like that. If you ask me am I willing to let go just like that and my answer is NO. But I don't think we still can manage our relationship both of us live in a different way having different lifestyle compare to now. Do you still remember what day is today ? Is our 1 year and 8 month anniversary so we just end it because of work ? Is that easy to tear us apart ? I don't know wtf have YW tell you this afternoon but I am sure you will stand for them because you think what they say was right compare to what I say. Do you think I will spoil you future ? DO you think I don't wan you to work in a better company?DO you think I don't want you to have a lot a lot money ? Outside have more and more chances waiting for us maybe you don't think so. I know what you think is you will say if I don't work here where should I go ? We work here more than a years then how much money do you gain to save in your account ? This you should be more know more than me. Why would you hear what other people say rather than your own gf ?Am I that wan you bad? I just wan you but you couldn't know it. Nvm is okay. I have nothing to say anymore.
Is all depend on you. Bye.
Saturday, August 24, 2013
Monday, August 12, 2013
3 days holiday
Hey, start from today I have 3 days holidays. Happy cause long time didn't a break I still remember when was the last time I have holiday it was on May. Ohhhhh such a long time. Work as this job really tiring but what should I work at after I resign here. Problem begin but I don't think it is a problem cause if I resign now I still have 6 months time for me to find another job. Huuuuu :(
Do you guys still remember my last post? I did! I remember when I was writing my last post that second my tears keep dropping non stop I don't give a shit on that second who was around me and staring at me cause on that second I really want to write all my emotion down. I don't know who to talk with on that time but after I wrote what I feel what did really release my feeling was I receive his massage on that time. He said he will never leave me alone he gonna stay away from there with me cause he know I'm not like a kid anymore I will think of our future. Thanks for him staying by my side all the time I really thanks him from my bottom of my heart.
Todayyyyy I went to shopping and movie with my friends sigh I have used more than 100 bucks for a day. Running of money nowadays. Help me ! Bought a lot things from THE BODY SHOP hope it really cure all my body and face problem. Nowadays my face skin was super duper dry OMGGG ! I should do something on that so I bought a lot. Sorry shopaholic is back. =]
I wanna go holiday with my baby boy. Sad he gonna work on this 2 days so I only have to be with him for a day. End of this month he will be going to Malaysia Fair again. He sure will be tired like hell. I hate this job making us so tired. =[
Alright before I stop here would like to post a picture of me. Haha camwhore freak.
Do you guys still remember my last post? I did! I remember when I was writing my last post that second my tears keep dropping non stop I don't give a shit on that second who was around me and staring at me cause on that second I really want to write all my emotion down. I don't know who to talk with on that time but after I wrote what I feel what did really release my feeling was I receive his massage on that time. He said he will never leave me alone he gonna stay away from there with me cause he know I'm not like a kid anymore I will think of our future. Thanks for him staying by my side all the time I really thanks him from my bottom of my heart.
Todayyyyy I went to shopping and movie with my friends sigh I have used more than 100 bucks for a day. Running of money nowadays. Help me ! Bought a lot things from THE BODY SHOP hope it really cure all my body and face problem. Nowadays my face skin was super duper dry OMGGG ! I should do something on that so I bought a lot. Sorry shopaholic is back. =]
I wanna go holiday with my baby boy. Sad he gonna work on this 2 days so I only have to be with him for a day. End of this month he will be going to Malaysia Fair again. He sure will be tired like hell. I hate this job making us so tired. =[
Alright before I stop here would like to post a picture of me. Haha camwhore freak.
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
WORST
WORST , WORST AND WORST !
Only one word can describe my feeling now. How I should I say? Erm... My fault? I made a wrong decision at first? Should I say it that way? Hooooo... Super down right now. Not The first time I have this feeling. Okay I feel sucks of my job I feel worst at my relationship. I could not accept both in the same time. My job I wanted to quit long time ago why why and why? Because I don't feel it is really suitable for me even now or after. Yeah they did nothing on me but why I feel it sucks on my job? IT always is not right for me I DON"T LIKE IT AT ALL. Moreover, every month gonna deduct my salary for adjustment? No cctv, no guard so who gonna take care of it ? They say we gonna take care of it. But my job was a sales person so I should do both job but you just paid me a single job salary. GOOD JOB ! I should stop on that.
Okay my relationship? One word I work hard on it but I don't get what I wan. WHY, WHY AND WHY ? Why do I have to work same job as him? because I want to have a good communication with him and more time on us. Why do I have to do that? Simply because I love him but why can't I simply get back a little love from him? When I'm in the worst of my job he told me he not gonna follow me he want to stay at this job. What's on his mind now ? Anyone can tell me. More and more I just can't understand him. Did he ever think about our future before? Me? Yes I did ! I wan to marry him and have our own house but what about him? If I leave on my job and he stay we probably could not meet each other anymore. Why? he off on weekdays and I off on weekend. DO u still think we still can manage our relationship compare to now we meet each other everyday? I don't think so. Why when I need you the most you leave me away? I failed on my job I have no one to talk about my feeling not even you. I just need you to support me but why it turns out lik dat?
Only one word can describe my feeling now. How I should I say? Erm... My fault? I made a wrong decision at first? Should I say it that way? Hooooo... Super down right now. Not The first time I have this feeling. Okay I feel sucks of my job I feel worst at my relationship. I could not accept both in the same time. My job I wanted to quit long time ago why why and why? Because I don't feel it is really suitable for me even now or after. Yeah they did nothing on me but why I feel it sucks on my job? IT always is not right for me I DON"T LIKE IT AT ALL. Moreover, every month gonna deduct my salary for adjustment? No cctv, no guard so who gonna take care of it ? They say we gonna take care of it. But my job was a sales person so I should do both job but you just paid me a single job salary. GOOD JOB ! I should stop on that.
Okay my relationship? One word I work hard on it but I don't get what I wan. WHY, WHY AND WHY ? Why do I have to work same job as him? because I want to have a good communication with him and more time on us. Why do I have to do that? Simply because I love him but why can't I simply get back a little love from him? When I'm in the worst of my job he told me he not gonna follow me he want to stay at this job. What's on his mind now ? Anyone can tell me. More and more I just can't understand him. Did he ever think about our future before? Me? Yes I did ! I wan to marry him and have our own house but what about him? If I leave on my job and he stay we probably could not meet each other anymore. Why? he off on weekdays and I off on weekend. DO u still think we still can manage our relationship compare to now we meet each other everyday? I don't think so. Why when I need you the most you leave me away? I failed on my job I have no one to talk about my feeling not even you. I just need you to support me but why it turns out lik dat?
Sign off.
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Twenty fifth
Twenty fifth always is one of my favourite day. Last two days ago me and my lovely boy went to celebrate our anniversary. Yeah ! So fast we have been together 18 month ! I'm glad we can go this far but still looking forward to our future. Haha. Hmm my wish is hope we can have our own house own car and our family ! :]
We went to Sunway to celebrate our anniversary. Shopping, movie, dinner awesome plan. It seems like very simple plan but it did mean a lot when you actually have all the time to spent with your love one.
Of course I went to Sunway to have my favourite food as well. Well let's have a look.
Next dinner time, we have our dinner with his family at charcoal bbq. It's not a good place to have our good dinner but the food is delicious. Why do I say so? Now let me tell you the story I HATE CATS ! The place there have a lot of cat and I am freaking scare of cats. I did saw before the cats jump up into a guy just because they wan to eat their food. WTF? Why iszit the cats so scary? From that day start I dislike cats. Sorry if you say I'm so mean honestly yes. :X The sweetest part of my life in that second when we having our charcoal bbq dinner was my baby boy give me his lap to put on my legs. AWWW !!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH !
Btw I have sew a pair of cute teddy bear as our anniversary present. Sorry for those ugly sewing on that bear I'm not that good on sewing but I did try my best on it. Hope you like it. I poke my self with the needle don't know how many hundred times. Haha.
Just want to let you know no matter how stupid I am please forgive me. Sometimes I might be annoying or did something just to make you mad but you really mean a lot to me. Remember last time when we argue what you to before? Last few days I saw something and it make me realize I should have treated you like this. Hope one day more than one day you will be more happy to be with me.
We went to Sunway to celebrate our anniversary. Shopping, movie, dinner awesome plan. It seems like very simple plan but it did mean a lot when you actually have all the time to spent with your love one.
Of course I went to Sunway to have my favourite food as well. Well let's have a look.
Yummy !
Next dinner time, we have our dinner with his family at charcoal bbq. It's not a good place to have our good dinner but the food is delicious. Why do I say so? Now let me tell you the story I HATE CATS ! The place there have a lot of cat and I am freaking scare of cats. I did saw before the cats jump up into a guy just because they wan to eat their food. WTF? Why iszit the cats so scary? From that day start I dislike cats. Sorry if you say I'm so mean honestly yes. :X The sweetest part of my life in that second when we having our charcoal bbq dinner was my baby boy give me his lap to put on my legs. AWWW !!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH !
Btw I have sew a pair of cute teddy bear as our anniversary present. Sorry for those ugly sewing on that bear I'm not that good on sewing but I did try my best on it. Hope you like it. I poke my self with the needle don't know how many hundred times. Haha.
Just want to let you know no matter how stupid I am please forgive me. Sometimes I might be annoying or did something just to make you mad but you really mean a lot to me. Remember last time when we argue what you to before? Last few days I saw something and it make me realize I should have treated you like this. Hope one day more than one day you will be more happy to be with me.
This is what I mean .
I love you Yong Wen Han.
These day I start to get sick.Today I have skip from my work because this morning I really feeling not well. Haze is getting worst one day more to one day finally in this 2 day RAIN ! Haha.
Hope I get well soon.
CHAW !
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Red ♥
Hi, yesterday was my off day went out with my baby boy. We wore red shirt together. Hehe. RED DAY OF US ! We went to ate Sushi King with Jack Lim , Amy and 2 more people. Haha. Bonanza day actually is not that cheap. Still have tax around RM8++ after that we went to pasar malam to have our dinner. Heate a lot. Super fat bay. Haha.
May I have 1 week off day. I want to sleep such a long long time at my bed. I miss my bed so much. Have been a long time didn't sleep a super long hour at my lovely bed. Haha. I'm pig right? I know that. ;]
Planing to take leave on this december to celebrate our 2 year anniversary at some place special. Any suggestion? I thought want to go Port Dickson but still don't know yet. Haha.
Nothing much oh ya I miss the time we spent our time at Redang. ♥
Planing to take leave on this december to celebrate our 2 year anniversary at some place special. Any suggestion? I thought want to go Port Dickson but still don't know yet. Haha.
Nothing much oh ya I miss the time we spent our time at Redang. ♥
I found this very cute.Check this out is my sticker. :]
Sunday, June 16, 2013
Another bad day.
Bad thing is around me all the time right this days ain't a good thing. 
What's happening ar? Can someone tell me ? What make me disappointed and sad the most was him. Seriously DISAPPOINTED ! Why do we always argue-ing because of someone else who didn't mean anything to us? Why iszit her ? Why? Why? Why? Am I that bad enough? Am I that bad until you need to find other girl to cheer you up? Is she better than me ? Iszit I can't do anything to make you happy anymore ? Am I mean nothing to you? A lot question pop up in my mind right now. Those question I can answer to cheer my self up anymore. Before this I tell my self is not like what I think but now I don't dare to give my self hope anymore. Sorry.
In this second he was at outdoor having his steak dinner with his family while I was staying at home to blog all my expression. Those thing you have done to me finally I have seen by today. This ain't the first time not second even not third time. You really hurt me this time. I forgive you everytime but sorry not for this time. I have been tired for all this kind of shit. To you you'll think that is not a big deal even I gotten wrong but for girls don't think so ! You think if I did this to you what will you feel ? Maybe you will feel hmm not a ig deal cause you did that to me. Haiz speechless la.
I text you today that I said I want to couple with you until end of this month first then only see weather want to continue our relationship anot. I really don't know. Don't know. I need something to cheer me up in this month. I really don't know should I forgive you this time. You know my behaviour, you know what I need, you know what I want, you know what I will do. Please do something to make me stay I really don't have confident on us.
I REALLY DO LOVE YOU A LOT but why you want to hurt me so bad. I really dislike this kind of feeling.
Can we be like this in the future? I hope that.
Chow ! Nothing to say. No mood.
What's happening ar? Can someone tell me ? What make me disappointed and sad the most was him. Seriously DISAPPOINTED ! Why do we always argue-ing because of someone else who didn't mean anything to us? Why iszit her ? Why? Why? Why? Am I that bad enough? Am I that bad until you need to find other girl to cheer you up? Is she better than me ? Iszit I can't do anything to make you happy anymore ? Am I mean nothing to you? A lot question pop up in my mind right now. Those question I can answer to cheer my self up anymore. Before this I tell my self is not like what I think but now I don't dare to give my self hope anymore. Sorry.In this second he was at outdoor having his steak dinner with his family while I was staying at home to blog all my expression. Those thing you have done to me finally I have seen by today. This ain't the first time not second even not third time. You really hurt me this time. I forgive you everytime but sorry not for this time. I have been tired for all this kind of shit. To you you'll think that is not a big deal even I gotten wrong but for girls don't think so ! You think if I did this to you what will you feel ? Maybe you will feel hmm not a ig deal cause you did that to me. Haiz speechless la.
I text you today that I said I want to couple with you until end of this month first then only see weather want to continue our relationship anot. I really don't know. Don't know. I need something to cheer me up in this month. I really don't know should I forgive you this time. You know my behaviour, you know what I need, you know what I want, you know what I will do. Please do something to make me stay I really don't have confident on us.
I REALLY DO LOVE YOU A LOT but why you want to hurt me so bad. I really dislike this kind of feeling.
Can we be like this in the future? I hope that.
Chow ! Nothing to say. No mood.
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
My baby boy
Hey it's me again. :]
I was running out of time so I have to rush type finish
my post right now.
So hmm actually I have a lot thing to say over here but I
don't know where should I start at. Haha
Erm yea I think this blog already is a dead blog for all
my followers before this that always seek for my blogger but now I'm back to
it. For now on I guess is only my stupid boy who will read my blog so actually
what I wrote over here I really wanted you to know what's my heart say some are
for you too.
I called you to seek for my blogger is because I have a
lot thing that afraid to tell infront of you. I guess you know
what am i going to say over here because all this day I
just complaining you. Haha sorry about that. I
really miss you text me a long long message at night
cause when every midnight I get woke up I saw those
sweet text from you really melt my heart like those
freaking hard day become a memorable day for me.
I guess you don't know. A simple thing you do to me
really do make me happy a lot a lot ! :]]
One more thing I miss that is everyday before I leaving
your car at night you sure do give me a goodbye kiss
but why do now don't have it any more. OMG ! Hmm I did
ask you before right but you answered me
a stupid answer that was ' cause everyday I kiss you I
scare you will get bored with it ' wth is that answer??
You tell other people about that other people sure laugh
you 99 ! HAHA Woi can you don't so stupid love
one people no matter how many damn times you kissed
her/him she/he will not get bored with it !
Do you get that YONG WEN HAN ?!!!
Besides that, I hate arguing with you seriously, BUT
luckily everytime we still manage to slove it together.
Haha. I love it ! Please don't let me cry. Everytime
single time I argue with you I
sure do cry a little. :[
MOST IMPORTANT THINGS :: Please don't gek me all the time
:[ I want you to tam me more seriously !! I run
out of love power! wahahaha I need more sweet and love
from you. PLEASE GIVE ME MORE LOVE !
That it what I want to tell you this few days. Love
you.
Sign out.
Friday, June 7, 2013
AHHH !
Second, this 2 month ain't my month as well trouble come after one and one. How could it be ? Arguing with my boyfiend. Esh i hate argue with my love one.
I really need something to cheer me up a lot of bad things happen lately. Well not onlybad thing happen to me yet still have some happiness GOD treat me not bad actually. haha. When I was in the worst GOD still give me some happiness. Haha.
Hmm let's see what's my happiness... Last month I just went to Redang with my love one yea is Mr. Yong. Haha. We went there 3 days 2 night. Memorable moment I had with him. Not only that we still have other friend to go there as well.. Don't misunderstand. Haha. Erm the activities we having there was like snorkeling, having a good time to chill at the bar, build some sand castle an so on. Their food was not bad. The last night for our dinner they served us some bbq food. Not bad. Should give them a thumps up. Haha. Hmm we do take a lot pictures over there BUT I am too lazy to upload. Haha. Ignore my lazyness over here. Will be upload some no worries.
Actually what exactly I am doing right now was taking my working time to update my blog. Ahhh don't let me get caught by my boss or colleague. Haha. Let's talk about my job hmm lately everything so smooth nothing special. Thanks GOD !
Okay, is time to talk about my HUSBAND ! HAHA. Basically we still manage living and spending our time with each other very well.. I"M GLAD ! Haha. Erm yea this month is our 1 year and 6 month anniversary ! AWWWW !!!! Looking forward some surprise from him. Haha. Oh sweetheart don't misunderstand I'm not giving u any pressure. Just feel excited to it. Haha I'm waiting for 25th of June.
Peace out !
Monday, February 18, 2013
two thousand thirteen !
Happy New Year !
Chinese new year is here everyone. :)
I got a story to tell. Hmm.. Everyone was busying with their own life own problem own business. Haha so does me. What kind of story I am going to tell here is all about my own life.
:D Everyday work, sleep, entertainment that kind of life i am having now. Lifeless ? Hmm not at all. Imagine being in love all the day getting a lot of money to buy all the stuff i love in the future is not a bad thing. Haha. With my love one happy ever after is one of my dream and now yea i admit it do success. Just watched a love story the more value of the story telling that if u love one person you must have to do something to make is urs unless it will never have a chance again. IF had a chance it will never be the same anymore. So i wanna say is always makes the one u love happy and most importantly happy with u is the best thing ever in yr relationship. I have been failed in many relationship but for now i really wish that i will live happy ever after with him. His not that rich and that smart looking but in my heart his the best one for me ever !
Do stalk me !
Chinese new year is here everyone. :)
I got a story to tell. Hmm.. Everyone was busying with their own life own problem own business. Haha so does me. What kind of story I am going to tell here is all about my own life.
:D Everyday work, sleep, entertainment that kind of life i am having now. Lifeless ? Hmm not at all. Imagine being in love all the day getting a lot of money to buy all the stuff i love in the future is not a bad thing. Haha. With my love one happy ever after is one of my dream and now yea i admit it do success. Just watched a love story the more value of the story telling that if u love one person you must have to do something to make is urs unless it will never have a chance again. IF had a chance it will never be the same anymore. So i wanna say is always makes the one u love happy and most importantly happy with u is the best thing ever in yr relationship. I have been failed in many relationship but for now i really wish that i will live happy ever after with him. His not that rich and that smart looking but in my heart his the best one for me ever !
Do stalk me !
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